KLRC Saved My Life - Anonymous (4/1/2010)

I think KLRC has saved my life. I do not say that lightly but if I can have so much joy overflowing my heart every single day after the tragic turn that my world took 5 years ago, then I would certainly challenge any listeners to believe that there is hope in the face of anything.

If you feel that you are alone, abandoned, unloved, forgotten, unworthy, crushed, hurt beyond belief and that there is no hope, just PLEASE try this: listen to KLRC for 1 week.  I mean truly listen to the words of the songs.  I don't know how Jesus did it, but using KLRC, He finally broke through the shield of stubborn hopelessness I had built up.  After 30 years of being a Christian I truly, suddenly and without any inhibitions or embarrassment fell head over heals in love with JESUS! 

I just never knew it could be like this. 

Here's my story:  I always thought I was already in love with Jesus because I considered myself a Christian.  Then my world collapsed.  About 5 years ago my life was good, perfect job - very high paying, great kids - straight A's, a 20 year marraige - and a very happy one at that!  Then my husband became addicted to drugs, got involved with another woman whom he had been buying from, and she spent the next 17 months terrorizing me and my children.  She called constantly, even called my daughter's cell phone, she told my children things a child should never hear.  She came by our house and even attacked me with pepper spray one time.  Oh my goodness, that stuff hurts! 

I lost my mind through 2 psychotic breaks, then my job of 15 years, my husband of 22 years, and finally my home.  When he left, we had no car, no phone, no job, and after the foreclosure, we had nowhere to go.  For over a year we barely survived, often without food, water or electricity for 3 and 4 days at a time.  I was grateful that my daughter was getting a lunch at school every day. 

I was sad to the point that I truly wanted to die and I was desperate.  I thought, "OK, I can't leave this life yet, my daughters need me, I can't take this heartache anymore, it's killing me, I'll listen to Christian radio, maybe see if God is still out there somewhere."  I scanned and scanned the radio dial until I finally heard words of praise in a song.  Over the next few days it's the only station that I listened to. 

I started hearing the words as if Jesus was actually saying them right to me.  I understood that everything I had endured and through all the pain and tears, He never left my side.  I know now that God has amazing things in store for me and loves me beyond any limit I could ever imagine.  Every step of your path is a necessary step, and during the most painful ones He is truly there with you catching every tear you shed right in the palm of His hand.  He is just patiently waiting for you to hear Him and let go so that you can fall head over heals in love with Him.  No matter what you do, He waits.  Don't make Him wait as long as I did!  I wish I could have found this out 45 years ago because the JOY and PEACE that spills over in my life now is what God uses to reach others. 

I wonder how many people I could have reached with this message over a lifetime.  Life is still very hard as a single parent, but He has blessed me with my old job back.  I wake up every day excited about what He has for me today and how I might be able to touch the life of another who is lost and just needs to truly find Him like I finally did.