This past weekend I had the opportunity to travel with a group of single moms to the Survive and Thrive Conference. My head is still spinning with information and encouragement and heartbreak from the weekend. I feel like I need a week in solitude with my journal to process all that I experienced in those few days. But one thing from the weekend just won't seem to go away. It's begging to be processed first, and I think it must.
First can I ask you to watch a video? One of the sessions I went to was titled Filling the Daddy Gap and the facilitator showed this video. I sat in a room with 80 or so single moms wiping tears from their eyes as they saw their own pain and their children's pain being portrayed in video and song and my heart thought of you.
We all carry pain. We all have been hurt. Damaged. And we can all cry out right alongside Kelly Clarkson and say "Because of you..."
Blame isn't new. It's a natural reaction to pain and consequences. Adam blamed Eve, Eve blamed the serpent. We all want to justify our behavior by reminding others why it is we behave the way we do. And most of the time our blame is justified. We truly were wronged. We truly were hurt or abused or abandoned or betrayed. So we blame. And we justify. And we stay trapped in our pain, repeating the cycle of suffering.
We rightly cry out "Because of you..." Mom, dad, childhood bully, ex-husband, rapist, abuser, drunk, coach, teacher, pastor, friend. Because of you I'm afraid. Because of you I can't trust. Because of you I lost my way. Because of you I'm angry. Because of you I'm bitter. Because of you I'm broken. Because of you.
It's easy to get caught in the cycle of "because of you". Easy to let it take over our thoughts and emotions. But it's a dangerous place to live. It's a place of perpetual pain. It's a trap that our enemy loves and God despises. Yes, God hates the sin that hurt us. But He also hates the cycle of blame that we continue to live in.
So how do we move forward? How to we break the cycle of blame? The same way, with the same words.
Because of You!
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith,
who for the joy set before him endured the cross,
scorning its shame,
and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
When we take our eyes off of our circumstances and look to Jesus and say "Because of You, Jesus!" everything changes. Because of You, I am free. Because of You, I am healed. Because of You I am not afraid. Because of You I have found hope and trust and joy! Because of You.
It's time to turn. Away from our pain and towards the cross. It's only when we fix our eyes on Jesus, only when we see His love for us, demonstrated by the suffering He endured so that we could be forgiven, and that we can truly be free.
When we're tempted to point a finger and dish out blame, instead let's look to the cross and say, "Because of You..."