I don't know about you but I find it easy for me to slip into doubt. It's second nature to me. Faith, on the other hand, requires me to make an effort. I have to convince myself to believe. Don't get me wrong, once I get there faith overtakes me and carries me through the storm. But, I have to get there, and sometimes getting there is an effort. Especially when l look around and see insurmountable obstacles.
Last night was one of those nights for me. Day 2 of Sharathon was over, and I sat at my desk looking at the numbers fretting. Do you ever do that? Just sit and fret? Then when I walked in the door my two oldest met me with Graduation Announcements in hand and big smiles across their faces. I outwardly rejoiced with them, but on the inside I was fretting again. Because graduation means a whole lot more than pretty announcements and senior pictures. I went to bed last night telling Jesus about all that I was worried with.
This morning was different. This morning God sent me a reminder, about fretting, and obstacles, and the source of hope. And He sent the reminder in a song:
My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus' blood and righteousness
I dare not trust the sweetest frame
But wholly trust in Jesus' name
Christ the Lord, Cornerstone
Weak made strong, in the Saviors Love
Through the storm
He is Lord, Lord of all
Yeah, doubt is easy. Because when I'm trusting in anything less that Christ, there is no hope. But when I trust in Him... when I remember, He is my Cornerstone, He is my Lord of all, then the storms quit raging and the voice of doubt is silenced.
Today's task seems insurmountable. And it is. $343,471 is insurmountable to me. But my hope isn't built on me, it's built on the Cornerstone of Christ Jesus. And He is faithful to meet the needs of His children. So today I choose to see the goodness of God. Today I choose to be strong in my Saviors love. Today I chose to believe, for KLRC to be fully funded, for God to provide for my girls college funding and their futures, and for you... whatever storm you're facing.
He truly is good.