A few weeks ago my husband shocked me by telling me he doesn't want anything to do with my children (10,12,14,16), does not want to be a parent to them or be a part of their lives, and is considering leaving us because of how he feels about them. Even though I knew being a step-dad wasn't easy all the time, my children are really well behaved and not rebellious or malicious at all, so I am completely stunned. The kids and I love my husband, and we have had a happy marriage (almost 4 years).
I fell in love with a guy, and he liked me but he just liked me for my body. I fell in love with him. I had never had sex with a guy before. I wanted to wait until marriage but I ended up giving myself to him because I loved him. He would want to date me, then he would get me to give him sex, and then he would not want to date me. I am tired of it and don't want to be messed with anymore. I'm standing my ground and trying to move on, but it's painful because I gave my life to him, loved him like Jesus, and he didn't do the same back. This is the hardest thing I feel like I have had to face in my whole life, but I deserve a man that will love me, value me and love me like Jesus does. I don't deserve being played with..
I attend a beauitful little old country church that I have adored for the past 3 or 4 years. I love the people and the family like atmosphere. Recent changes have been made so that children are not allowed to participate in the praise part of the worship service. Normally after Sunday School children sit in for a few songs before being dismissed to our children's church. I feel like we want families to attend but that we may be giving the wrong impression to them that we don't want their children there.
My husband and I need to find a place to rent. We have been told the house we're living in has mold which would contribute to why we're both sick. Along with that our neighborhood has gotten really bad with drug dealers living all around us. We are moving out of where we were at the end of the month and as of right now we may have to put everything we own in storage and rent a hotel until we can find a house.
Our family recently moved, and we are asking for guidance in our every day lives to stay strong for God, to protect our kiddos, and for help for the kiddos to adjust to new schools and succeed. Also we pray for God's help for us parents to keep our relationship strong between each other. Amen. God bless all.